I’d given seven years of my life to a man who couldn’t even have a conversation with me.” “Hef knew how desperate, sad, and broken I was, but didn’t do a damn thing about it. “If I had any doubts about my decision to leave, what Bridget said had just squashed them,” writes Madison.

“I told him he should really talk to you about it,” she recounts Marquardt saying during one conversation about her depression.

Madison claims that while Hefner was aware of her troubles, he did nothing to help her. She also recounts taking antidepressants, which she later weaned herself off of. In one chapter, she shares a moment when she considered committing suicide in a bathtub. In several passages, she recounts episodes of severe depression while living at the mansion. Here are 10 of the most shocking revelations from Madison’s book:ġ. In her tell-all, 'Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny,' she shares specific details on her time at the Holmby Hills, California, mansion with Hefner and her former “The Girls Next Door” co-stars, Kendra Wilkinson, Bridget Marquardt, Crystal (Harris) Hefner and more. 1 girlfriend, Madison, now 35, says she was subjected to house rules, mean girls and more during her stay before parting ways with the now 89-year-old publication mogul in 2008. Holly Madison’s memoir doesn’t spare its readers any juicy details from her seven-year stint at Hugh Hefner’s famed Playboy Mansion. Here she poses with her then 'The Girls Next Door' co-stars, Hugh Hefner, Bridget Marquardt and Kendra Wilkinson, in August 2006. Holly Madison (left) has released a book detailing her life at the Playboy Mansion.

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